the main problem i have is not with my selfconfidence.thank god i grew out of my insecurities a long time ago.now im fully confident,and i can have a playfull conversation with any girl i like.the problem is finding one.
i was out yesterday in the most popular place to be in athens.Gazi,or "γκάζι".its a nice place downtown where you can find bars,clubs,restaurants,cafes for any taste and you'll see mostly people around 18-30 yo.
A nice place to go for "hunting"...anyway,i was looking around all the time but most of the girls i saw were either fashion victims or mediocre nice girls.Ok but i want something more than that...my friends tell me that i think about it too much,and that my preconceptions might be proved to be wrong.But personally the "image" i project is myself.I dont really care much about fashion,although ive been told that i have taste,and usually i dress in a way that makes me feel comfortable...what do i mean?...i am the one wearing my clothes and not the other way around.And as far as my attitude is concerned...im just me.But most people i see are like tv-magazine copycats.They act,live and dress the way its "supposed" to be cool,they re just posers.And i hate that.And i didnt see one "original" girl...at least at the bar i went with my friends.and that sucks!...am i asking for too much?cause when someone pretends to be something else than what they are i can see right through it.
What happened to all the "normal" people?you know,people who are just themselves...with nothing extra.just their simple nice selves.Is it so difficult for them to accept themselves?and what can a person that cant even stand it self offer to me?how can you share something(may it be sex,a simple relationship or even a serious relationship) with someone that hates herself?
...then we went to a goth club...that had a fetish event!now that was a lot more interesting but most of the girls there were posers too!...well the seemed to have a lot more "character" but still they were posing...
so in the end i realise that i cant find a person that is "normal"...meaning a person that knows what she wants and likes and doesnt "lie" to you with a fake attitude.someone whos original!
...and im not somekind of super man and neither the most original person on the galaxy but im getting bored of having to deal with "fake bitches"...or "fashion victims"
...so thats what im thinking today...and i cant figure it out...
